in the club a man touch my shoulder and say how are you.
i say im bored i go home. the man say i suck you dick to make you less bored. i say no thanks. take drugs he say. no thanks.
a man hang upsidedown hands behind back eyes soft.
i wake and empty and clean myself and pray with god. i make bread and fast. i shave my head in the toilet mirror. i work in a ghost kitchen serving people who pay not feed themselves.
i paint graffiti in the street and am not vandal. i like being toy tourist pirate. i have no sex in twelve month. i no more watch porno. i no more use tinder.
i no more drink. maybe instagram next. what they give? what they take?